Living with ADHD: struggles
TL;DR
The author finds it hard to be open about struggles because she feels she should handle them alone and fears being judged or abandoned. She recognizes that this builds barriers within herself and with others and that opening up makes her feel better. She sees her habit of minimizing short-term discomfort over long-term success as a growth edge.
I hate being open and honest about my problems, struggles, and challenges.
It’s not that I don’t want the help, I just feel that I should be able to handle them on my own. When I do open up and let people, in I feel better. I worry about people judging me, or thinking I’m too screwed up. I don’t want people to abandon me because they think I’m broken.
I consciously know that this builds unintentional barriers both within myself and between myself and the people around me. I don’t want to seem weak to those around me. I think and act on an internal directive to minimize short-term discomfort rather than long-term success. Perhaps that is one of my growth edges.
